Music: Ronan Keating - Iris

As you may notice music is my life, I love to find songs that describe my situation and I love to listen to music (every single genre of music). I've found one more song which describes my situation (and just for the record situation is changing in past two-three weeks, you'll see in one of the next...

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Online dating

I really don't know is this good or bad, but in my country it is really hard to find people who are gay or bisexual. Well, they really exist, but they are pretending to be straight cause it's really hard to live your life like outed gay. So, because I never was in gay relationship or even be with...

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Music: 3 Doors Down - Here Without You

The new song I like so much. It left big impression on me. Reminds me on D. (again, well I think that every song reminds me on him, even some house songs cause I was on a lot of parties with him)... I'm losing my mind, but nevertheless I think that I'm slowly forgetting him, which is amazing... Here...

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10 days with D.

OK, we were at trip for 10 days and I can tell you that it was amazing, but I'm not so satisfied about my hanging out with D. I spent more time with his best friend and other people, because he was in other room (something complicated about keys and other stuffs) because we were going on group trip....

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Shelter movie review

Sometimes the life you have isn't the one you want. I just watched movie "Shelter" online and I can tell you that it's quite good. This is my second gay movie that I watched. I watched only "Broakback Mountain" before this and I like "Shelter" cause it's more modern and closer to me. I like a story...

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I'm back...

I didn't write for a while.A lot of happened in this past month. I was on holiday with D. We were together for about 10 days. After these 10 days, a lot of bad thing happened about me and him.As I said a while ago, I didn't write because my blog wasn't so popular and now nothing changed about that....

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His name

We were together for this weekend and we had great time. We were sleeping in same house and I really like him, but now more like friend and not like... you know what I mean.Now he's on holiday and I won't see him for about 10 days and after that we'll be together for 10 days :) Can't wait!I also noticed that I see his name everywhere on the Internet, while surfing... That's maybe sign, but sign about...

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The end of school

School has officially ended. Now I can enjoy my summer holiday and my time with D. :) A lot happened in these past two-three days, a lot of big happening, and my emotions and impressions about all aren't settled yet, and I simply can't write right now. I was again at some party with D. I noticed that I drink a lot, and I promised myself that I'll drink only in his presence, and I try to obey that....

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Another day

Today is Saturday, first day of week-end. Tonight, after weeks and weeks of warm and summer time, rain fell for the first time :( So today I can't go anywhere. I hate rain, first because it's too depressive and second because it's cold. But I like smell and sound of rain, it made me think about everything....

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Enrique Iglesias - Alguien Soy Yo

Music always was very important part of my life. I've always had a song which brought me to life, cheer me up, makes me happy, makes me crazy etc. I'll present you one song. It's from Enrique Iglesias titled "Alquien Soy Yo" or "Somebody's Me" in English. Spanish version is way better than the English...

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Feelings redused

Well, in past few days I've noticed that I care less about D. Dunno why, maybe because I finally realized that he's too egocentric and too self-loving. But he's still so cute and we are nice friends right now (it's just awkward and bit scary that I hang out with him and I'm in love with him and so amazing at the same time). I'm going on summer holiday with him. Also, a lot of other people from school...

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Bloggers

I didn't write for quite some time. I didn't have inspiration and I didn't get so many visits, so I don't know what to write anymore, and I have huge desire to talk. And I don't have time after all, because school is almost over and I need to study hard. While not writing, I was surfing other blogs of people who is like me and I found many blogs. All stories are really similar and that confuses,...

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Night with D.

I didn't have inspiration to write because I thought that no one reads my blog, but I started to receive some comments and I think that I'll continue with writing. A while ago I was at some party (again) and D. was there. Well, I was invited by him, just for the record. Than as the night went on, he hooked up with my friend who is girl, who was brought by me in request of party-maker. D. hook...

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School

It is the first day of school. I saw him, we had some vacation and I didn't see him for over a week. He's so cute. The yesterday party was really boring and he wasn't there. There were a few people (about 60) and party was so boring so I left about midnig...

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Again party

Well, tonight I'm also going at some party (one friend is celebrating her 18th birthday). There is some chance (about 3% :P) that D. will be there. I'm not in mood for some party, I'm quite tired from last one (yesterday), but if he comes maybe I'll stay bit longer. No, if he comes I WILL stay longer, but I'm not so sure that he'll come ...

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Clubbing

OK. I'm bit drunk. D. wasn't at the party, but I had great time. I didn't hook up with that girl but we had some dirty dancing and I enjoyed a lot. Almost all my best friends were there and I was very happy. I also tried to catch some drunk guy in toilet but I didn't had luck with that action :) Lol,...

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Plan for tonight

Well, I'm going out tonight with my friends in some club. Just to mention that my friends don't know that I'm bisexual or gay. I called D and invited him too, but he can't come :-( and I'm planning to hook up with some girl who is coming and I "have some feelings" about her. If D. was coming, I'd...

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How everything began

Well, it was in seventh grade when I was 13 years old. At first I didn't give to much attention to that "new" feeling and with years it became more and more serious. I started to watch boys in other way (I mean on boys from my surrounding not my friends), I had fantasies with some cute guy in bus for example. Culmination of all this stunned me in second grade of high school when I fell in love...

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Fresh start

OK, this will be my first post. Today is my first anniversary of recognition me as "different person" or should I say gay/bi person. I don't know how to classify myself, because I'm still confused, but we'll see what will happen with me through this blog. I'm hoping that this blog will have some readers...

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