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I didn't have inspiration to write because I thought that no one reads my blog, but I started to receive some comments and I think that I'll continue with writing. A while ago I was at some party (again) and D. was there. Well, I was invited by him, just for the record. Than as the night went on, he hooked up with my friend who is girl, who was brought by me in request of party-maker. D. hook up with... Let's call her Simone. I was with two girls at that party and I was kissing one of them near D. When my one-night-girl went back at the podium to dance, I was so drunk and I starred in D. and Simone for about two minutes. I was so jealous and in that moment, totally drunk and unaware that I could reveal myself to the viewers who can see me, but to be honest I didn't care at all. That night was disaster for me, because I like Simone too and she was kissing with boy who I also like, my bisexuality :( I even think that I hooked up with that two girls just because D

It is the first day of school. I saw him, we had some vacation and I didn't see him for over a week. He's so cute. The yesterday party was really boring and he wasn't there. There were a few people (about 60) and party was so boring so I left about midnight.

Well, tonight I'm also going at some party (one friend is celebrating her 18th birthday). There is some chance (about 3% :P) that D. will be there. I'm not in mood for some party, I'm quite tired from last one (yesterday), but if he comes maybe I'll stay bit longer. No, if he comes I WILL stay longer, but I'm not so sure that he'll come :-(

OK. I'm bit drunk. D. wasn't at the party, but I had great time. I didn't hook up with that girl but we had some dirty dancing and I enjoyed a lot. Almost all my best friends were there and I was very happy. I also tried to catch some drunk guy in toilet but I didn't had luck with that action :) Lol, I'm just kidding. I met a lot of new guys and one of them in joke said that he is bisexual. :P Maybe he is, but hides that and only makes jokes with that. He is really cute and has nice dance moves. I'm writing this through mobile, as previous three posts, and I'm waiting and waiting on the stairs to let alcohol go out of my blood to go home normal. I really had GREAT time. Good night everyone!

Well, I'm going out tonight with my friends in some club. Just to mention that my friends don't know that I'm bisexual or gay. I called D and invited him too, but he can't come :-( and I'm planning to hook up with some girl who is coming and I "have some feelings" about her. If D. was coming, I'd just be happy if he is close to me, and we'll dance together, I know that, but there will be more parties so I'll go tonight and enjoy only girl's company :-)

Well, it was in seventh grade when I was 13 years old. At first I didn't give to much attention to that "new" feeling and with years it became more and more serious. I started to watch boys in other way (I mean on boys from my surrounding not my friends), I had fantasies with some cute guy in bus for example. Culmination of all this stunned me in second grade of high school when I fell in love (I think). At first THAT boy was just cute to me, and slowly I start noticing him more often and then I run mad about him. Sorry because I explain in this simple way, it's just because I need to get some confidence in this blog and its readers. I wish to stay anonymous and that is prime reason why at first I won't be so communicative here. That's same thing that happened with my diary, at first I was like this, shy. Slowly you'll see that I will start talking more and more. Now to go back to my gay/bi confusion. Simply said, I'm not hundred percent sure.

OK, this will be my first post. Today is my first anniversary of recognition me as "different person" or should I say gay/bi person. I don't know how to classify myself, because I'm still confused, but we'll see what will happen with me through this blog. I'm hoping that this blog will have some readers who will help me to direct my confusion. Hello, I'm anonymous blogger and I'm 18 years old. Welcome to my blog!