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The new song I like so much. It left big impression on me. Reminds me on D. (again, well I think that every song reminds me on him, even some house songs cause I was on a lot of parties with him)... I'm losing my mind, but nevertheless I think that I'm slowly forgetting him, which is amazing... Here are the words of the song: A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same But all the miles had separate They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams And tonight it’s only you and me The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go I’m here without you bab

OK, we were at trip for 10 days and I can tell you that it was amazing, but I'm not so satisfied about my hanging out with D. I spent more time with his best friend and other people, because he was in other room (something complicated about keys and other stuffs) because we were going on group trip. So I was in room with his best friend and some other guy. D. was in totally different area of hotel :( But we became closer than we were before this trip and I'm glad because of that. He told me a lot of things that I didn't knew before and I was disappointed with him in past two-three days. He came out to be just like I always knew, but I didn't want to accept that (love is blind believe me). He's total jerk. He's so cute, adorable, but in his head he totally egocentric (even more I ever imagine) and so selfish and so want-to-use-people. He thinks that with his cuteness and girls liking him, he can have everything. I was used by him, two times. I recently find

Sometimes the life you have isn't the one you want. I just watched movie "Shelter" online and I can tell you that it's quite good. This is my second gay movie that I watched. I watched only "Broakback Mountain" before this and I like "Shelter" cause it's more modern and closer to me. I like a story between Zech and Shaun. It is so romantic, so dramatic and so amazing. I like it as happy end, but just for the record to all gays, not every story ends like that one or starts like that one :( It will be nice, but still it isn't like that. I won't spoil anything to you; just watch the movie that's my recommendation. I'd like to find something like this (I mean on their relationship), looks kinda normal now. P.S. Recommend me some other movies like this one and "Brokeback Mountain".

I didn't write for a while. A lot of happened in this past month. I was on holiday with D. We were together for about 10 days. After these 10 days, a lot of bad thing happened about me and him. As I said a while ago, I didn't write because my blog wasn't so popular and now nothing changed about that. I told you that I will write because it makes me feel better and I don't care how many people read my blog. Well, I'd like to tell you everything, but I already write everything down in my own private diary so I don't have to feel any better. But as I said my diary is private and no one knows what is written in it so I think that I'll write here everything and MAYBE I'll got some comments cause I want some opinions about situation. Hope you understand... I don't know why, but I feel that my blog sounds boring. Maybe it's because English isn't my mother tongue and it is really hard for me to write in it. Please understand!

We were together for this weekend and we had great time. We were sleeping in same house and I really like him, but now more like friend and not like... you know what I mean. Now he's on holiday and I won't see him for about 10 days and after that we'll be together for 10 days :) Can't wait! I also noticed that I see his name everywhere on the Internet, while surfing... That's maybe sign, but sign about what? He's 100 percent straight :( Summer is here and I don't hang so much on the computer so please understand why I don't write so much. This anonymous blogs are amazing... :)