I was confused about my sexuality and right now I'm living in a very homophobic society. Through this blog I will find out where and to whom I belong. Stay with me...

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Music: Ronan Keating - Iris

August 06, 2008 Posted by B , , , , , 3 comments
As you may notice music is my life, I love to find songs that describe my situation and I love to listen to music (every single genre of music). I've found one more song which describes my situation (and just for the record situation is changing in past two-three weeks, you'll see in one of the next posts). Song is named "Iris" and I really can't see why. If anybody knows please explain me.

And Ronan Keating is one of my favourite singers, I first heard him on Eurovision Song Contest with the song "The Way You Make Me Feel". And he's cute guy, and he's also born near my birthday, so I like him even more :-)



Here are lyrics:


And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven
That I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breath is your life
Cuz sooner or later its over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


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Saturday, August 2, 2008

Online dating

August 02, 2008 Posted by B , , , , 3 comments
I really don't know is this good or bad, but in my country it is really hard to find people who are gay or bisexual. Well, they really exist, but they are pretending to be straight cause it's really hard to live your life like outed gay.

So, because I never was in gay relationship or even be with a gay, I decide to join some local gay community website. You can put your profile and people can send you a message. And I can say that I'm surprised.

I got a lot of disgusting messages just asking for sex in some really disgusting way... I just ignored messages like that. But I got three really nice messages, now even more with really nice people. Some guy who is only one year older than me and some other guy who is 5 years older and the third one is guy who is 8 years old. Well, I'm just discussing with them through email so nothing happened and no one knows who I am in real life. Second guy became disgusting when I told him that I'm not for a meeting right now, so he's not in my list anymore.

Who knows, maybe I'm going to see one of them soon. The first (one year older) guy seems nice, but only seems. I don't really know is he real and does he have really 19 years. And I don't even know how he looks like, but from the emails, I think that he's not so hot.

Thanks for reading.